Wednesday, May 20, 2009
urgh.
urgh.
URGH.
i feel like a complete idiot.
we got back our econs mcq.
cheang ming got hers; 27, highest in class.
jia hui got hers; 25
shana got hers; 25
i got mine.
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.
.
17?!?!
first i was damn shocked. like, how can i do this badly??
then reason set in and i was like, i couldn't have gotten this low. i mean i checked my answers with jia hui after the exam and we got almost all the same answers!
so i checked my omr and...guess what.
yes you guessed right.
i missed shading in one question.
OOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
just missed ONE, ONE ONE ONE.
and poof, my marks fell from
28 to 17.
LIKE WTH LAH!!!!!!!!!!!
i could have gotten highest in the class!!!!!!!!!
anyway cm was urging me to go ask mdm goh if i could get my marks. after all, i did get them right.
so it took about one minute plus for her to get it(i told margaret and it took her only 15 seconds to get it) and then she was like, oh i have to check with hod.
bleagh petooey.
the hod is mrs lim-neo, strict teacher. bye bye to my 28.
SO HORRIBLE. I FEEL THE PAIN, OH THE PAAAIIINNN.
ah but wateva. i feel kinda numb about it now.
but today was feeling rather down.
because of her.
yes i'm turning into one of those people who use "her" instead of the actual name. but that's because i'm scared of "her" friend seeing it. if "she" saw it i couldn't care less. and "her" friend happens to be my friend so i wouldn't want to put her(my friend) in a spot.
ah let's just name her Z.
and my friend A.
so Z is really annoying me. i met her through A, and i began thinking of her as my friend, not my friend's friend. so when i saw her, i'd saw hello, wave, smile etc.
then i noticed everytime she seemed to try and avoid me if possible, like pretend not to see me. then when i waved right at her and there was no possible way for her to hide the fact that she saw me, she would give me this phony smile.
like hide, hide, hide, smile, walk off.
at first, i thought she was shy and stuff. coz we're not close.
then i discover - something. it'll be rather obvious if i let everyone know.
then i discover something else. when A and i happen to be together, and then we happen to bump into Z, Z will say, " hi A" and look only at A and ignore me totally. though i smile politely at her.
she doesn't even look at me.
the most irritating part is she's always so cutesy in front of others. innocent like. then i find out she's capable of disliking someone so strongly.
i REALLY REALLY REALLY wonder what i did to make her ignore me like that.
as far as i can remember, i've never done anything against her, talked about her behind her back, or anything.
she's making me really confused, and annoyed, and slightly pissed off.
she somehow holds an intense dislike for me and i have no idea why. i say dislike because i don't think it's so serious as " i hate you".
****** says i'm imagining things. but i don't think i am. if i am, then thank goodness, all is well again, just that i might feel embarrassed. but i'm 80% sure i'm not imagining things.
angry angry angry!!
maybe not angry. just unhappy. so very unhappy.
so horrible.
ade, sms me :(
--Mary was an idiot:)--
6:10 PM
